17th January 2023
Another day is almost over.
Another day of expectations and no results
Another day of rising up and being confident that everything happens for a reason.
Not a bad day for emotional turmoil, the turmoil has not arrived yet and I am more or less at ease.
The difference from last days is that I seem to accept what is and more or less let past be past and believe in the future.
I am proud of me not giving in to the temptation to do what I could not do.
I was going to, but I changed my mind. It may have consequences but I am fine with that. I am at least responsible to myself and respect my limits. This is new for me in this situation and I am happy about myself.
Someone else may not be too happy, but now I have to stay firm and believe in what I am doing and trust the universe to take care of everything.
If I am asked for help I have to put myself first. This is something I remember my good friend say to me again and again. I am finally listening to his words.
I can not sacrifice everything for anyone. If I don´t take care of myself I will be useless for everyone.
This is what I am taking from this day.
I have to be number one to be able to help others.
Putting me in third place is simply sick.
Today I have not cried.
Today I have not been out because of the bad weather, but I have been more or less just content.
The problems have not disappeared but my attitude is changing I believe.
I am optimistic and I am waiting to see what happens.
Whatever the outcome is I will accept it with open heart and respect the universe.
The universe knows better than I what is in store for me.
It’s cold but I am lucky to have warm clothes and wood.
I have managed to pay almost all my bills this month, and those 2 who are left will be paid on the last day of the month so everything will be a clean sheet on the first of February.
The currency of the Icelandic krona is horrible but I will manage.
The gas bill is high but I will also manage.
Everything is going to be fine.