17th of march 2022
The calm me!
In my little land there was a dark cloud yesterday. The sand from the universe covered everything and today the cars are covered in dust.
Yesterday I felt a bit like the dust, flowing from one motion to another.
We live in a strange period of Covid time, time that has not been similar at least through my generation.
People are struggling with mental problems; they are missing the closeness of before and in my little land we are missing hugging and kissing which is our culture. All this affects each and every one of us.
This time and lack of the closeness is affecting me like everyone else.
I am lucky, I am strong and I have the courage to change what I can change and accept what I cannot change.
My way, when I am sad or broken, is to sit down at my computer and write. I write in a diary my thoughts and feelings. This diary is just for my eyes. I have been using this method throughout my life and here I am still strong and thinking about the future with positive brackets.
Life is a challenge and I believe that every experience is a lesson to learn from and become a better person.
This morning I have been practising my singing and the work went well. I am singing a beautiful Ave Maria and it gives me joy to feel how my voice is still strong even after those 2 years of not seeing my teacher.
I have also, this morning, meditated. Meditation gives me peace and I forget my worries.
Soon my organic vegetables will arrive. I get a basket every week from a friend of mine and sometimes I share part of the basket with my neighbours next door.
Sharing is in my nature and it gives me joy. Sharing is in my little lands culture as well.
When my dreams shatter, I rise up stronger and wiser.
I have a plan.
I am going to meditate every day and write a blog every day for some time.
I am going to make the relationship with me work because in the end I am the only one that can make me happy and the road to my happiness is my inner peace.
There are so many people who are suffering now because of the isolation for almost 2 years because of the Covid.
Some do make it and others don’t.
I am going to share my process with you my reader and perhaps there are some among you who need to hear from someone that is on the road to recovery and how this one does it.
The calm me is out this moment.