22nd of May 2020
Today is my birthday, my 75th birthday which for some might seem a lot.
A friend said to me this morning: I thought you were MUCH younger!
I feel younger than I did 10 years ago. How is that possible?
I have no idea. I just know that today I feel happier than ever and content which is great.
It has been a strange year, the 74th one, the year I thought everyone would be the same and everything would be just as usually.
No, everything changed. My heart got broken and mended again. My health got better and my physical age gained about 8 years. How about that?
Broken heart is an opportunity to change the circle of life and that I did. As I have said many times, the teacher arrives when you need him. My teacher was a surprise and enjoyable in many ways but also difficult and demanding. This teacher made me realise that trusting people is possible. This teacher taught me how trust can be safe and it can be ok to let someone know you just who you are and how you have changed during the years but the real you has been in hiding. This teacher helped me to find my way back and tread the new road with confidence and love. I am forever grateful for my teacher and what I learned. I am also lucky to continue to have that teacher in my life as my mentor as long as I want and is necessary.
During the years I have made sure no one person would know me completely. I chose friends and gave them a piece of the cake, they knew their piece well but nothing outside that one.
Being afraid to let anyone inside your soul and be prepared to share your soul with all the boxes, not just few, was a great challenge but I rose to it and now I enjoy the trust I was able to find.
The future is today. This day a new chapter in my life begins. What will it have in store for me is unknown but I am happy and excited. What I know is that taking care of my body and soul is number one in my well being and that I will do every day of the new beginning.
Great friends are my luck.
Having friends around the globe makes me a better person and I will learn every day to appreciate the all more and more.
I wish you all a wonderful day and future.
Dream about normal again and nourish your dreams, mould them and polish as you grow spiritually.