I have to survive

4th of April 2020
Boa Tarde

It’s 2 o’clock and I just got up

I woke up at 9 and went to bed again

I did not have the energy to get up

I just wanted to sleep through the horrific situation

In prison with less and less energy every day is the feeling

What happened yesterday was this:
For a couple of hours I let go of my protection
I listened to the idiot in the TV
I watched some discussion about the situation
And I read about the situation in my little land

When I opened my window just now a neighbour was leaving with her husband and she asked if I was ok

I told her how I felt at the moment and she told me if I needed anything they were there for me

Grateful I waved and closed the window

I can’t let down my mental protective shield

I have to take it one hour at a time if I need to

One day at a time does seem like an eternity sometimes

I give you pictures this day that explain how I felt when I got up

Locked inside something invisible and looking at my window

I know I will make it with all of you but it’s complicated

I send you hugs and kisses and love you all

I got a message from another neighbour of mine and she asked if I needed something from the supermarket, because she was going there. I also got a note from her, If you need anything let me know!. Having people like that is a precious gift.

I have to survive and remember that there is a shining star behind every cloud. I have to remind me every day and every hour about this.

Beijinhos amigos e abraços grandes com amore e luz

Hulda Björnsdóttir

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