It feels like I am climbing stairs all the time.
I truly hope that I will get out of the snow that is surrounding me and I putting my head down to be able to move forward.
It has been a struggle and I never ask for help but I did now.
I have no idea what will happen but I know one thing.
My spirit is alive and my body is functioning, in some ways even better than decades ago.
Tomorrow I will know what will happen.
I feel kind of numb.
I don´t feel anxious, just numb.
A strange feeling but interesting.
Will I get out of the snow and will it lighten up or will the snow continue?
What is ging to happen to me?
Why do I feel just calm and nub?
Why don´t I feel surprised and disappointed?
A new day and a new beginning is ahead.
At least I tried everything.
Thank God for my life and protect my loved one
Tomorrow I will continue. Tonight I will rest.