22. March 2022
Today is a day I will remember for some time.
I have been in a relationship for 17 months and was going to get married soon.
Some things have not added up and I have had a gut feeling about this during some months.
Yesterday I decided to investigate the situation thoroughly and I did get confirmed what I expected.
I feel fine today and totally calm.
Falling in love is wonderful and the feeling stays with me forever as a good memory.
I have learned a lot about myself during this time and got to know me from a different aspect.
Every thing happens for a reason and there is always the choice to make the most of the ones that are painful. The lessons are sometimes difficult to understand and even realise that there is something not as it should be.
I have learned my lesson and I am stronger today than I was yesterday.
I have found out how, not just I but other people as well, have been lied to.
The cheater is trying to make me believe that everything is just a misunderstanding. That is what cheaters do.
They trye to manipulate the victim!
What this one didn’t not understand is how clever I am and how easy it is to see through the lies.
The problem with lies is that you need to keep track of them and you need to remember what you said.
When you are not telling the truth you will always be found out, sooner or later.
I was lucky. I faced the fact and I stepped back.
It feels good to be free, but it is also sad.
A beautiful dream has been shattered but I am whole.
Yesterday I took a very long walk around my little village and neighbourhood and thought about my situation. I came to the conclusion that I was ready to end the relationship and be free.
Today is a new wonderful day and I am grateful for being alive and healthy. Yesterdays walk was in a way a test of my physical situation and I am happy about my condition.
Just few days left of this month and then the summertime arrives in my little land and the spring arrives where everything comes to live again from the winter rest.
Next Monday I will see my favourite doctor face to face, for the first time in 2 years, 2 long Covid years with phone conversation, but on Monday I will see her again.
Life continues. Sometimes there are crossroads and we take a new turn. That is my choice and I am happy.
I am a strong woman and nothing breaks me.
I rise up if I fall and become even stronger than before.
Happiness is inside each and everyone of us. We don´t have to let others destroy us.
Looking into the mirror and telling yourself that you are wonderful and loved is a healing proses that we all can use.