If you have to leave, just leave!

20. January 2022

Life is about evolving

Don´t stay in a situation that’s not helping you grow mentally, spiritually and emotionally.

This was in a quote today and it is perfect for me to contemplate about today.

I am in a situation I don´t like.

I don´t feel valued as I should.

I am angry and disappointed.

I feel being used.

Words and actions are different.

Words are easy to use but actions take courage.

How do I value myself? This is a question I am asking myself again and again.

I am a helper.

I am a saviour,

I am allowing people to use me until suddenly I have got enough and I blow up.

This is not a good situation to be in and it is not to grow!

The question is if I can leave?

Are my promises to myself worth something?

Why do I get into this helping situation again and again throughout my life?

Why can’t I just be normal and let go?

I need to make an important decision before the end of the month and there are just 11 days left.

My future depends on my decision.

My happiness could depend on my decision.

This morning I woke up deciding it would be a good day and I would appreciate myself and show myself I care about me.

So far, I have been doing well, but it is not easy.

The universe is unfolding in front of me and I am happy about the day so far.

I have no idea how tomorrow or even the next week will turn out but what I know is that I will be ok.

Everything happens for a reason.

My lesson has been to value myself and I am getting there slowly but steadily.

I am not very good at telling people to stop using me, but I am slowly learning.

I am convinced that everything will be as it should be, but at the moment I don´t know how the outcome will be or what next few months will look like.

The only thing I know is that respect and trust are the major thing I want into my life.

If I feel the trust is not there I leave and if I feel the respect is lacking, I leave.

I have made a promise. I keep my promises.

I know what I want and I know what I need to be able to fulfil my promise to myself.

Am I going to stick to it?

I can’t say either way this moment but soon, very soon I will know.

I’m sure many of you have been in a similar limbo and you will understand that everything happens for a reason, or doesn’t it?

I’m going to have a wonderful rest of the day and tonight I will appreciate myself and the day.

My little land is beautiful today and very cold but the sun is shining. The sun is shining in my mind as well, even though you might think there is a darkness there.

I am ME, and I love the ME more today than I did yesterday.

I am proud to be who I am and I am not going to let anything or anyone change that.

Life is just wonderful when I am honest with myself and I am grateful for my friends who are there to support me whenever I ask for help.

Hulda Björnsdóttir