7th of March 2021
Today is a Sunday and I am feeling the weight of the Covid.
My mornings are getting heavier and more difficult to be optimistic and positive.
This is strange for me because normally I am patient and serene, but now I am feeling so terribly sad.
I miss my friends and I miss the hugs and kisses and the laughter and the fun.
This morning I wrote on Facebook about how sad I feel. I got response!
“More people in the same situation!”
Perfect, nothing in messages or anything just to make me feel not as terrible alone in the situation! I was disappointed. I would have sent a message to a person and asked if there was anything I could do to help? I would have asked if she or he just needed someone to listen to or if the person wanted to talk on Skype or whatever. I would have reached out.
I don´t ask for help.
I am usually the one that does help but now it is me that needs someone to reach out because I am in a way giving up, at least this moment.
My friends know me and they know that the normal me is always there for them.
Why am I writing about this?
Am I asking for help here?
No, I am not, but I want us each and everyone to think about the situation we are all in.
The strong ones do brake once in a while. That was what happened to me this morning. I have felt alone most of the day. I have been thinking if I could ask someone for help and then who it should be. Should I bother or should I just let it be and get over it and be fine tomorrow after perhaps crying today?
I am not sure what I am going to do but just writing about it and sharing with you my reader has helped.
I will be ok; I know that but this moment I am not ok.
This moment I am broken.
This moment I am lonely.
This moment will pass and another moment will arrive.
The next moment will be better and tomorrow will be fine.
My reader, if you have a friend that you think might use a virtual hug, I urge you to reach out. That is why I am writing this.
Just remember, the strong ones do brake.
The strong ones are there for you when you need them and now is the time for you to be there for them.
Hulda Björnsdóttir
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