28 th of May 2023
Four beautiful thoughts that I need just now:
- Look back and get experience
- Look forward and see hope
- Look around and find reality
- Look within and find yourself
I am broken today. I am crying today. I feel betrayed today. I lost hope for the future I expected.
Yesterday I cried like my heart was breaking into pieces.
Crying is ok when I need it and it helps to heal the broken heart.
Last year, this day, I was happy and full of hope and preparing for a beautiful happy life for the rest of my life, with the love of my life!
Today everything is changed. There is no happy future ahead with the love of my life. The destiny is not on my side this day but I will survive.
I am sad and I don´t know how I am going to be happy ever again, but I know it is up to me to recover. I can not let life destroy me. I can not let a dream, a beautiful one, turn into tragedy. I have to move on.
I experienced a great happiness and love but it was not supposed to last. I learned that I can be loved for what and who I am without any conditions. I learned that it is ok for me to love like there is no end to the happiness.
That is what I see when I look back.
When I look forward, I see hope. I know this situation is over and a new period is coming. The pain is there today but less than resent days. When someone dies, we grieve and there is no way back. The memories are there and they don’t die. The good memories are what I am clinging to . There are many of them and they warm my heart.
The reality is that I move on. I continue to live even though my loved one has passed away. I continue to find happiness inside myself and I find gratitude for being alive.
Today I feel sad and broken.
Tomorrow is a new day and the future is moving.
I pray to God to help me to be at piece again.
I pray to God to help me to find purpose in the years I have left on this earth.
I pray to God to embrace me with love and light and heal my broken heart.
It hurts so much!
A broken bone heals. A broken soul heals. Everything happens for a reason.
Please God grant me serenity.
HB
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