24. september 2022
I forgot to write yesterday
My computer is slow and I didn´t remember that I do have a phone and can blog from there.
Yesterday was a rather good day.
I put up the thing for my trees to climb and now I am looking forward to see what happens. 2 screws and the bamboo are there waiting for the climbing.
My ginger is growing and the leaves in one of the pots are big and the other one is showing.
If I didn’t have my flowers my life would be less exciting these days.
The autumn has officially arrived and yesterday I turned the heat on in the bedroom. I am not going to be in 11 degrees for days and days without heating the radiator in the bedroom. The central heating can wait and I need to get some wood from somewhere.
I’m worried about the future.
I need 2.700-euro loan and have tried everything but the doors are closed because of my age.
Its annoying and makes me angry that if I was 10 years younger I could walk into every bank and get what I need but just a number of years closes all doors.
I even offered some people 20 percent interest rates, but everyone is busy with their own lives and I understand that.
I did find a company and I played them 100 EUR but then they asked for more money and I knew it was a scam so that one went into the blocked and reported category,
I just wonder how my future will be but I am not going to spoil the day with worrying.
I worry about my loved one and just hope my strength will travel to him. Every hurdle just makes me stronger and now I have to be strong for both of us while he is giving up.
I believe that everything happens for a reason. There is a reason for everything. Maybe we are just being tested by the universe and we will be free one day to enjoy our lives together until death us departs.
The sun is shining outside and I am optimistic even though disappointed to have all doors slammed in my face simply because of my age.
The trees are swaying outside and there are both shadows and sunshine at the same time, simply showing me that this is normal life and, in the end, everything will be fine, just as I believe.
I know what I want and I know I will do everything in my power to make it happen even though at this moment I don´t see any solutions.
Life is a challenge.
Some survive, and some don´t.
I am a survivor.
I look forward to my future. My happiness is just around the corner, and most of it is inside my heart, whatever the outer situation is.