Skrípasker í sinni bestu mynd

27. september 2024

Hugleiðing í lok dags

Í morgun sá ég að Þórður Snær ætlar að ganga til liðs við Samfylkinguna.

Nýlega gerðist ég áskrifandi að pistlum sem hann skrifar og var nokkuð ánægð með þá.

Hann er glöggur maður og góður þjóðfélagsrýnir.

Ég hef auðvitað ekkert með það að gera hvort hann fer á þing eða ekki. Ég er bara svekkt yfir því að missa hann af almennum umræðuvettvangi inn í pólitísku hítina.

Ég efast ekki um að hann vilji hafa áhrif til góðs með þessari ákvörðun.

Gallinn er bara sá að þegar hann er kominn inn á þing í faðm Samfó þá verður frelsið farið.

Flokks aginn tekur yfir.

Hann verður múlbundinn af aga formannsins og getur ekki haft sjálfstæða skoðun lengur, alla vega ekki tjáð hana fyrir almenningi.

Þetta er bara svona, og margur hefur farið inn á þing með göfugar hugsjónir sem hafa verið kveðnar í kútinn af formanni.

Ég hef óskaplega litla trú á flestum þeim sem nú sitja á þingi og sagði einhvers staðar að alþingi væri gjörspillt.

Auðvitað fékk ég bágt fyrir, en ég stend við þessa skoðun mína.

Þjóðfélagið er gjörspillt. Það eru ekki allir sem eru í spillingunni, en hún teygir arma sína eins og kolkrabbi um allt. Hvað er það annað en spilling þegar örfáar ættir raka saman auði á meðan almúginn sveltur hálfu og heilu hungri?

Ég sá um daginn hungurlúsina sem situr eftir þegar búið er taka skatta og skerðingar af hækkuninni sem ráðherrann var svo ægilega lukkulegur með, fyrir eldri borgara.

Svo sá ég líka að öryrkjar eru með einhverja tugi þúsunda hærri tölu vegna skerðinga en eldri borgarar og koma því eitthvað betur út í næstu framtíð.

Öryrkjar hætta ekki að vera öryrkjar þegar þeir eiga 67 ára afmæli en þá verða þeir eldri borgarar og fara á kjör eldri borgara, og vitið hvað, þá lækka þeir í bótum!

Var þetta alltaf hugsunin hjá yfirvöldum, eða vita þeir hreinlega ekkert hvað þeir eru að gera?

Ég get ekki svarað því, en mér sýnist flestir á Alþingi hafa fremur litla þekkingu eða áhuga á kjörum þeirra sem eru 67 ára eða meira, nema auðvitað þeirra sem tilheyra klíkunni, elítunni!

Það er hægt að taka hálfan ellilífeyri og sleppa við skerðingar.

Það er hægt að vinna og hafa ríflegar upphæðir áður en skerðingar byrja.

Atvinnumöguleikar venjulegs fólks eftir 67 ára eru ekki miklir.

Ég sá einhvers staðar að konur yfir 50 ættu erfitt með að skipta um starf eða fá vinnu eftir einhverja fjarveru!

Margar konur úr umönnunarstéttum eru búnar bæði á líkama og sál eftir 50 og jafnvel fyrr.  Ekki geta þær farið á kostakjör eftir það. Nei, þær verða margar öryrkjar vegna heilsu brests.

Réttlætið er alls staðar, er það ekki?

Ég veit ekki hvað Þórður veit mikið um kjör þessa fólks, kannski heilmikið og kannski ekki neitt.

Ég er stundum að láta mig dreyma um að manngæska og sanngirni ráði för þegar skoðað er kerfi almanna trygginga en það er draumur sem deyr þegar ég vakna.

Kerfið er þannig að flest fólk sem situr á Alþingi nennir ekki að setja sig vel inn í það en situr á móti fulltrúum þessara hópa og skilur og er fullt af góðvilja þangað til viðmælendur eru farnir út úr herberginu.

Það gerist ekkert.

Nei, það er ekki alveg rétt, það gerist eitthvað smá, eins og til dæmis hækkun frítekjumarks eldri borgara í fjárlögunum sem nú eru til umræðu og ráðherra stærir sig af.

Hann kemst upp með að hæla sér af því að þeir sem eru á Alþingi nenna ekki að eyða orku í að fara yfir málið og kynna sér í botn hvaða afleiðingar hækkunin hefur!

Ég leyfi mér að segja að margir þingmenn hreinlega nenna ekki að vinna vinnuna. Sumir sofa meira að segja á þingfundum! Er hægt að sýna meiri linnuskap?

Ég held að það skipti ekki nokkru máli hverjir af þessum flokkum situr í ríkisstjórn.

Það er að mestu sami grautur í sömu skál, undir mismunandi nöfnum og bókstöfum.

Að kjósa á Íslandi er einfaldlega jók.

Enginn gefur út fyrir kosningar hverjum ekki verður starfað með og þegar búið er að ljúga inn atkvæðin gerir pólitíkin bara það sem henni sýnist.

Unga fólkið og eldra líka, flýr land.

Það er ekki hægt að vera venjuleg launamanneskja á þessu landi og hafa sæmilega í sig og á, hafandi hús til að búa í og mat á borðum alla daga mánaðarins.

Gengi, vextir, verðlag, húsnæðiskostnaður, lækniskostnaður, og það sem þarf til að lifa mannsæmandi lífi stendur ekki til boða fyrir alla á Íslandi.

Fáar ættir eru að sölsa undir sig allt og komast upp með það.

Hvað er eiginlega að þjóðinni?

Hulda Björnsdóttir

The mind is in control

It’s all about the mindset

If I want to be 100 years, a positive mindset is absolout!

Healthy life style, healthy food, healthy thoughts , optimism, ignoring negativity

Being happy with what I have and always expect the best

Laugh
Smile
Play

The best way is to be grateful for everything

Don’t listen to the negative voice in your head

Listen to the optimistic one

Those two are there and I am the one who knows which one to listen to.

It’s all about the mindset 🤗🌹❤️

Hulda Bjornsdottir

Where are the keys?

Stundum er einfalt svo flókið
Ég var að fara heim úr ræktinni í morgun.
Ég þarf að stinga lyklinum í skrána á bílnum því remote virkar ekki í bili

Ég lét dótið í aftursætið og settist í bílstjóra sætið

Hvar voru lyklarnir?  😭
Ég vissi að ég hafði opnað með þeim en nú voru þeir týndir

Hvernig gat það verið?

Ég fór í alla vasa og leitaði um allt. Undir sætunum, undir mottunum, undir bílnum og ekkert fannst

Settist inn og var gráti næst!

Ég verð að fá einhvern til að hjálpa mér!

Stóð upp og þegar ég var að loka starði þá ekki lykillinn á mig alveg bit.

Ætlarðu að skilja mig eftir? sagði hann undrandi

Stundum er lífið einfaldlega svo skemmtilegt 😀

The condominium is still a problem, or is it?

20.sept 2024

Its difficult to live in a condominium where half of the owners don’t see their responsibility to pay for what is a cost to run the condominium properly.

3 of 6 have never paid anything.

I am pissed off now and its difficult to keep calm and not shout and scream.

How am I going to survive?

I have pictures on my living room wall where there is a layout for a house that I really would like to have.

I have been thinking about taking those pictures down and just give up on my dream but something has kept me from doing it.

I´m thinking about how to survive the situation and then is struck me:

I am stuck in the situation in my mind and that is not good.

How am I going to survive?

I have to change my thoughts and remember that nothing is cut in stones about my life!

Letting go of the situation and letting the others solve the problem is the best I can do.

Keeping my life going and making the most and the best of it is in my power.

What others are saying or doing is not my problem and me thinking about it and worrying does not make any difference.

Letting go is the only thing I can do.

The month is almost over and October is approaching!

This month I have been saving for my new car.

I made a plan. I decided how much I would put in the saving account, I figured out how much the bills would take and then I estimated how much money I needed for other things, i.e. food, medicine, diesel and so on.

The plan is working.

There is just one week left and I have everything I need even though some unexpected situations have taken some of the money from my estimation.

The plan is working perfectly.

Next month is a month where I always have mor bills than other months so perhaps I won’t be able to save as much as this month but it is almost the same.

The plan is to be able to get a newer car in January next year.

Because I am old I don´t have any credit, just because of my age, and I have accepted it.

I could shout and scream about it but it doesn’t change anything!

Anyway, I am happy with this month and planning is my strength and I like it. It gives me purpose and energy.

I am working on my mindset about the situation in the condominium and saw my lawyer yesterday and I know my legal rights and what I can do, and what I can’t do.

If they decide to have a meeting, I am going to have an interpreter with me so I will understand every word. I will have to pay for it but that is ok. I really need to understand everything they say and its difficult to understand the mad one upstairs!

I have begun to write the book about the SHIT and that is a task which is not too difficult and the goal is to make it an eBook and perhaps I will get some of the money back by selling it! Not a bad idea, but the main thing is to be absolutely, horrible, honest and then it might help someone in the same situation I was in.

We are never alone; we just have to reach out.

The mindset is everything!

This is it for today.

Hulda Bjornsdottir

The laser treatment

12th of September 2024

Today I went to a clinic to get laser on my toe nails.

I have been having fungus for some years on my toe and have tried everyhting and nothing works.

Then I decided some days ago to try the laser treatment.

There is a clinic connected to my gym that I went to.

i got the address and I had my GPS and it was supposed to be easy. but being me finding the way is almost never easy. I complicate it all and don’t follow the guidelines

Finally I figured it out but it took a while.

Next time I know how easy it is when I just don´t take the power from my GPS.

Well, the reason I’m writing this is I want to say how perfect they were.

Everyone was truly nice and welcoming.

I needed to go to the bathroom and couldn’t find the light! Of course, this was after all me.

I got help and when explained it was, just needed to go further into the room and the light would go on. How could I figure that out? Normally the light goes on as soon as you step into the room!

Then it was the treatment and I was worried. Would it hurt? Would it be ok because of the pacemaker?

Everything is going to be fine they told me and I decided for once just to believe what I was told!

Everything went well and next month I go again. I am curious, will it work or not?

This is now and next month is the future.

Patience is the goal!

Tomorrow is a gym day. Today after the laser I went to Condeixa to have my hair done, which I do every week. I was 2 hours early but my hairdresser took me in, otherwise I would have to go home and then drive again to Condeixa.

Sometimes we just have to ask!

When I was going to my car, after the hairdresser, a fire broke out not faraway.

This is the time when the wind is blowing and everything is dry. A perfect day for a fire and there have many of them today. Its so terribly sad but this is reality here in my little land.

A normal day in my life, that is what this one was.

Tomorrow is a new day and a new future. The life goes on and I’m making the most of it.

Using every day to get stronger and happier that is the goal.

Have a great day tomorrow my reader and remember its all up to you how the results are. there are mistakes and there are victories mixed together. Don’t let the mistakes define you, they are just lessons.

If you need help to recover, seek help.

When I am depressed I like to sit down and write. That is my way to figure it all out.

When I am happy i also like to write it down and express my gratitude to the universe.

I have a feeling there is a guardian angel taking care of me when I need it.

Hulda Bjornsdottir

The SHIT is haunting me!

11th of September 2024

The road forward is complicated, more complicated than I expected it to be.

The SHIT is haunting me.

When I am writing the story about the time I was in a “relationship” with him I get again and again the feeling that maybe I am wrong. Maybe he is just an honest man.

I know in my heart that I am not wrong but the doubt is still lingering.

I went through some WhatsApp conversations and everything there shouts at me saying ‘you are right” But I still doubt.

What a great actor he has been, to convince me.

When I look at the writing and his English the truth is there in front of me but I still doubt my judgement.

When I look at how limited his conversation is and how the pattern is perfect, when he is supposed to get into the plain and travel to Portugal, something terrible happens and he can not come that day, but will next month.

There is a great act behind his behaviour.

All the documents he sent me are for sure fake.

One of his friends, the one he had talking to me, to convince me that he was not a scam, told me during that conversation that everything was possible in Nigeria.

The SHIT told his friend he could not say that to me! This was a video call!

All the stories about how sick he was, all the stories about him traveling from Ghana to Nigeria, to Benin, to Abuja, to Lagos, and the money he needed for just one more document.

All the stories about the doctors telling him if he could not get money for treatment he would die.

He should have died many times during those years.

I know he is a fake and a romantic scammer, but the feeling that perhaps I am wrong, doesn’t leave me. Not yet.

I got a message from him some time ago where he told me that his Facebook had been hacked and he had deleted it. He asked how he could add me to his new one!

Of course he is not going to add me. I will not accept his friend request if it appears.

He has a profile picture where he is laughing and wearing nice clothes, just a happy person.

Not long ago he told me that he didn’t have any clothes, had no place to live, had to sleep outside and would just die! AGAIN

I see that he has some white women friends and one of them is German and on her pictures, he puts the love sign and a comment about how wonderful she is.

I am wondering if I should warn her about what kind of a man he is.

I am not sure if she is a fake profile, there are no posts and it could easily be pictures from somewhere.

She seems to be rather new on Facebook, her pictures are all from August.

I don´t know what I will do.

I am going to wait a bit and see how this turns out.

The problem is that I still have a lingering doubt in my mind that perhaps I am doing him wrong by accusing him of being a scammer.

He has been telling me that the agent in Lagos still has the money, those 30.000 naira, which he was supposed to use for his visa and finding a job here in Portugal.

There is no way that the money are still with the agent, and I believe there never was any agent.

This is the truth but he has continued to let me believe that he is talking to the agent and she is telling him he just has to get his health back and then he can travel.

Djisus krist, this is unbelievable.

Its unbelievable that I can’t just accept that I am right about what shit he is.

I am telling myself it takes time to recover from such abuse, and I have to accept that and not be frustrated and disappointed in myself.

Forgiving myself for my stupidity is what is complicating the healing process.

At least I am not crying!

Hulda Bjornsdottir

Nice clothes, new shoes, wrist watch ⌚. Doesn’t look like a begging homeless starving man!

At the end of the week

Just a thought 🤔

At the end of the day I think back and ask myself how I did this week!💪

I’m happy with the results.
My body is getting stronger day by day.

Going to the gym is a huge part of my recovery
Today I had a challenge which showed me how much I have moved forward.
Today was also a day of the importance of how the mindset is
I do talk to my body if it looks like I can’t do what my PT is asking me to do
Telling my body: I can do it, I am stronger and I feel good, is a great part of the process.

I think sometimes I underestimate the power of the mind
Being optimistic and trust the process is the best way to get my goals. 💪🌹
My mind at ease is important
Dreading what will happen is not good for piece of mind 🤗

Nothing happens until it happens and maybe it turns out completely different from the expectations 🤗
The power of the mind is huge
Let’s remember that ❤️

These are my thoughts into the night and I’m grateful for this day.

Hulda Bjornsdottir

I wish life was simple!

5th of September 2024

A lot is happening in my life, just as it should.

Somethings are good and other things are not so good.

I have already begun to write the book about the Shit and how I fell for the sweet talking.

Day before yesterday I went through all the messages on Facebook from 2021.

It was interesting to see how quickly I fell. He has deleted his Facebook and opened a new one. Facebook sent me a note about this new member and suggested I would friend him! The algorithm is everywhere!

I have already written few pages and telling the whole truth as I see it. It does help a bit to look at the past without anger or feeling pathetic.

Everything in my life happens for a reason, or that is what I believe.

My life goes on and now it is September.

Day before yesterday I needed to go to Coimbra to take care of some things.

In Coimbra I realised that I didn’t have my phone with me, which I normally have when I go somewhere.

I thought it would be home on my kitchen table and I had just forgotten to put it in my purse.

I came home and there was no phone!

This was strange, I looked everywhere in my apartment and tried to call the number but the phone was not replying.

I even went to the bin and took out the bag I had thrown before I left but there was no phone!

I went to my neighbour’s work and asked her if she had seen my phone when she got home during lunch. No she had not seen anything.

I decided to go back to Coimbra and just buy a new phone, there was no way I could be without a phone and I need 2 of them because of some electric documents.

I got a phone for 200 euro and next stop was MEO in to get a second card for my number, to use in the new phone!

Everything went well and I got home.

I experimented with the new old phone setting it up and it took a long time of frustration and I really did not like the new one!

It was bedtime and suddenly I decided to once again go through all the apartment and see if I could find the phone. I had a feeling that it was somewhere safe.

Suddenly I remembered that before I left I had to get a scarf and I had got it.

When I looked into the drawer and dug deep, guess what! There was my best friend, my phone.

What a relief.

Yesterday I took the new phone back to Coimbra and asked them if I could give it back.

I could give it back but not the money, just a paper for 200 eur to use another time.

That’s ok. Next year I will perhaps buy a new one!

This year I am busy saving money for the newer car! And am on a tight budged this year!

Living in the condominium is complicated. The Syrians upstairs are now back from holiday and I am worried about how they will reach when I start using my fireplace.

Last year they complained.

I am not sure what to do if they knock on my door and have been thinking I need to talk to my lawyer about what rights I have.

My plan is to use the fireplace to save the gas money during this winter, so I can save more for my new car.

Yesterday I got the bill for cutting the gras and tidying up the garden around the condominium. 212 eur which I paired today.

I was going to try to get the others to pay their part but now I am not sure. I just now the Simians wont pay anything, they never pay anything belonging to the condominium, they just complain about what goes wrong!

The money are ok, if they would make me untouchable, but that might be a problem.

Now I just have to wait and not be too worried.

Nothing solves the situation by being half dead of wires.

I have to ramming me that I am stronger than the idiots upstairs!

My crime is to be a woman and live alone and not letting the Syrian control me!

I think I will ask my lawyer for an appointment and discuss with her what I can do.

Then at least I would have some idea about my rights.

This is annoing.

Life is a challenge. I know that. Being optimistic is a challenge and does need courage.

I am courageus and everything will be ok at the end.

Standing by myself is the challenge.

I overcame the SHIT and his manipulation, so everything is possible!

Sometimes all I can do is to accept what is and have faith in what will be!

Hulda Bjornsdottir

Hvar er barátta fyrir eldri borgara?

1.september 2024
Í dag er nýr mánuður og nýjar áskoranir.

Ég hef verið að reyna að setja mig inn í ruglið í lögum um öryrkja og skil hvorki upp né niður í þeirri vegferð.

Hvað er það nákvæmlega sem breytist og hvernig kemur þetta út fyrir öryrkjana?

Þetta er stóra spurningin.

Líklega fá einhverjir öryrkjar hálfgert sjokk þegar þeir skoða greiðslurna sem kemur til þeirra í dag.

Eldra fólk er líklega ekki í vandræðum með að skilja þeirra seðil því eins og við vitum þá hætta öryrkjar að vera öryrkjar þegar þeir ná ákveðnum aldri, sama hvort þeir hafi verið öryrkjar allt sitt líf, til dæmis vegna líkamlegrar fötlunar.

Skrifræðið á skrípaskeri er samt við sig.

Undanfarið hefur farið mikið fyrir báráttu Samstöðvarinnar fyrir fólk á Gaza.

Væri ekki dásamlegt ef sami kraftur væri notaður í að berjast fyrir bættm kjörum eldri borgara sem tilheyra þeim sem eru að fá skammtaða skömm frá TR?

Nei, auðvitað kemur það ekki fjölmiðli eins og Samstöðinni við hvernig fátækir eldri borgarar hafa það. Fólk úti í heimi er mikilvægara.

Ég er ekki að gera lítið úr hörmungum þeirra sem búa við stríð alla daga úti í heimi.

Ég er hins vegar að furða mig á því að ekki skuli vera beitt sama þrýstingi og baráttu fyrir Íslendinga.

Kannski er ástæðan sú að forsprakki fjölmiðilsins hefur þá skoðun að barátta fyrir afnámi skerðinga á tekjum frá Lífeyrissjóði sé bara fyrir þá ríku!

Fáfræðin er algjör og ég ætla mér ekki þá dul að hægt sé að breyta þessu viðhorfi. Mér finnst bara grátlegt að ekki skuli vera hamrað á því dag og nótt hvernig bæta má hag þeirra sem byggðu upp þetta land með striti og tárum allt sitt líf, og eru nú hundsaðir og látið sem þeir tilheyri ekki !

Margir hafa flúið til þess að geta lifað af síðasta part ævinnar og það fólk er ekki á leiðinni aftur til Íslands.

Nú um áramótin verður enn ein aðförin að eldri borgurum sem eru flóttamenn frá Íslandi og persónuafsláttur afnuminn hjá þeim.

Hverslags aðför er þetta eiginlega?

Er það markmið alþingis og ríkisstjórnar að murka lífið úr þessum hópi með öllum tiltækmu ráðum, og þegar ekki gengur nógu vel þá eru búin til ný lög til að hnýta endahnútinn?

Er þetta virkilega svona ?

Ég er reið og skammast mín fyrir að tilheyra svona þjóð!

Hulda Bjornsdóttir

A new day and new life

Today is a new day with new future in the making

I’ve got have cooked rice 🍚🌾

Using rice instead of potatoes is a perfect choice

I don’t have potatoes but carrots are in the house 🏠

Having broth is also a must for me

The next 5 months I’m going to use my money with care, I’m saving for a new car 🚗 and I’m excited 😆

This morning I got up and went for a walk like I normally do when not going to the gym

I brought a water bottle with me as always

After walking half the way I normally do I decided it would be wise to turn around and get home, I felt strange

My blood pressure was seriously low and the hart rate very high

Lying down was the option.

Now it’s 14,15 and I’m feeling better

Having a down day is just a reminder to take it easy and rest when I need to rest.

It’s good to be alive.

I’m grateful for the day

I’m grateful for having food on my plate every day

There’s so much to be grateful for, sometimes we just need to look closely into our hearts 💕

The day before yesterday I went to the hospital and got some news that I had been hoping not to get

I spoke to my PT yesterday and almost gave him a headache.

Now he is making a new plan for our training and yesterday we just took a long walk, 2 km is not bad 👍

On Monday he will tell me the plan. There is no way I’m going to stop

It’s wital for my health to continue my routine

I really love my gym and the wonderful people there. I’m getting stronger day by day. It takes effort but it’s truly worth it

I hope you are well and happy

Sending love and light around the world is what we need those days.