Once again I don´t know what to believe

13. September 2022

It feels like my life is over

Of course, it is not over, it is just painful at the moment.

I have been the gullible woman I have been my whole life.

I have believed even though my gut feeling has told me otherwise.

I have been spending almost 2 years in a dream and now I hope I am waking up for good.

It hurts.

It is humiliating

It is devastating

It is sad

I should be angry but I am just terribly sad.

I’m like a leave in huge storm and flying back and forth without any direction.

I have lost my believe in a way.

I have lost my happiness for a moment

I have lost my everything it seems

I have to pick my self up and take care of my soul.

I can do it

I have done it before and I am stronger than ever

I know the truth but I want to hold on to the lie.

This does make sense

I’m truly terribly human

The road ahead is there but I have no idea where it is going to take me.

My life will change

My future will be different than I expected

I could say that everything is lost but it is not. A lesson has been learned and I am the student that is taking the final test.

I have to survive the test; I just have to. My life depends on it.

I can cry for a while but then I have to rise up and smile even brighter than before.

Life is not over.

A chapter is over and a new one begins.

It will take time to recover, but patience is all that matters.

For some time, I have been worried about how to manage 2 tests at the hospital the same morning. Yesterday I got a call and they asked me if I could come on the next day for one of the tests. I was happy and said thank you, this is perfect.

I thought yesterday, this is how everything works out for the best, I just have to believe.

It is good to think about this tiny matter when my life is upside down and it makes me stronger and the believe that everything happens for a reason and everything will turn out for the best is the lesson.

It will be interesting to see how my strength returns and my happiness will shine again.

Hulda Björnsdóttir

Hvað sæti eftir af 200 þúsund króna frítekjumarki?

30.ágúst 2022

Hvað mundi gerast ef frítekjumark greiðslna frá TR hækkaði upp í 200.000 á mánuði?

Hvaða afleiðingar hefði það á greiðslur frá sveitarfélagi, félagslegri aðstoð?

Hvað situr eftir af þessum 200.000 þegar upp er staðið hjá t.d. eftirlaunamanneskjunni?

Það er ekki nóg að horfa bara á eitt atriði, það þarf að skoða afleiðingarnar til enda.

Ég hef grun um að það væri ekki sérlega hagstætt sem út kæmi þegar allt væri skoðað.

Vandinn við kerfi almannatrygginga og félagslegrar aðstoðar er svo flókið að líklega skilur enginn manneskja það fullkomlega, og margir sem sitja á Alþingis skilja líklega minna en ekkert í því kerfi sem hefur verið stagbætt eins og bútasaumsteppi.

Dæmi 1.

Einungis tekjur frá TR: Heildartekjur fyrir skatt krónur 286.619, heildartekjur eftir skatt krónur 250.393

Hér mundi 200 þúsund króna frítekjumark ekki hafa nein áhrif.

Dæmi 2.

N‘UNA:   199 þúsund krónur frá Lífeyrissjóði. Heildartekjur á mánuði fyrir skatt krónur 407.319 (frá líf krónur 199.000 + frá TR krónur 208.319), heildartekjur á mánuði eftir skatt: krónur 330.738

Hér mundi 200.000 króna frítekjumark hækka útborguð laun um krónur um 48.585 þúsund á mánuði og dæmið líta svona út:

Heildartekjur á mánuði fyrir skatt krónur 485.619 (frá lífeyrissjóði krónur 199.000 + frá TR krónur 286.619), heildartekjur á mánuði eftir skatt: krónur 379.323 krónur á mánuði

MISMUNURINN ER KRÓNUR 48.585 EFTIR SKATT samkvæmt reiknivél TR

Bíddu nú við:

Hvað varð um 200 þúsund frítekjumarkið?

200.000 mínus 48.585 samasem 151.415 krónur sem ríkið tekur til sín í skatt af hækkuðu frítekjumarki.

Þessar tölur eru samkvæmt reiknivél TR og tekjur frá Lífeyrissjóði eru 199.000 á mánuði og manneskjan fær ekki heimilisuppbót.

Ég veit ekki hvernig aðrar félagslegar bætur mundu breytast. Ég þekki það kerfi ekki en vafalaust mundi eitthvað fara úr skorðum þar.

Það er allt í lagi að velta svona dæmum fyrir sér til enda finnst mér

Hulda Björnsdóttir

Stay calm

29. august 2022

Another day, another month around the corner and everything in slow motion.

Patient, be patient is singing in my head this morning and I am relatively calm.

I am patient in a way but sometimes it is too much.

When I loose my patience I hurt people!

When I keep clam I allow people to be who they are and I just relax.

I can not change anyone but myself.

I am working hard in my self talk and I think it is bearing frut.

It will be interesting to see how I am this day next year. Will I still be in turmoil or will I have settled down?

Time will tell.

The future is NOW and at least that is working for me.

Stepping back and watching is also working.

Figuring out what the lesson is, might also be working.

I looked me in the eye and saw who I really am, some of it I like and other I have to change, but the best is that I was honest with myself and I know why I react often like I do.

One step forward is all I have got today but that is enough.

Hulda Bjornsdottir

The future !

27. of August 2022

Bom dia

Good morning – just a thought for today

THE PAST versus THE FUTURE

2 things are certain in our lives. We are born and we die.

For the last 2 years I have been on hold waiting for my future to appear. Yesterday I got a blow and I truly don´t know what to do at the moment but something will happen, that is for sure.

I am a person who likes to plan the future and in October last year I did something which was supposed to make my future what I wanted it to be.

Nothing turned out as I had expected and the consequences are grave. I got the blow yesterday and my life collapsed in a way. I did not want to wake up this morning and just wanted to sleep and forget everything.

This of course is not possible while I am breathing, I have to wake up in the morning and my live continues. This got me to think about the past and the future and where the future really is.

In my mind NOW this moment, the future is NOW.

The past is gone and I can not do anything about that except perhaps learn something from it.

Life is a journey and sometimes there are hurdles and sometimes the road is clear and no hurdles, but it always moves.

When thinking about the future and what I can do to make it what I want it to look like, I have to accept that my future is NOW, this moment.

I can put my head in the sand and blame others for what has happened, but I prefer to be responsible and take the consequences.

I have gone through a lot during my life, just as everyone else, and sometimes I have blamed others and shouted and screamed in my desperation, but sometimes I have just cried and looked towards the moment, to my future that exact moment, and somehow everything has worked out.

I have an idea about what the lesson is this time. I am going to make the most of this lesson and learn so I won’t have to go through it again.

Somehow, I always get tools if I look for them. Few days ago, I got an email and there is a road to recovery from the sadness and despair. I have to make an effort and look really hard at my self-image and change what I can. The guidelines make sense to me and I am going to make my future, this moment at least, a peaceful moment for myself.

Blaming me or others for my situation is not going to solve anything, but taking action will work.

I wish you who reads this a good future and hope you will make each moment count because we never know how long the future will last.

Hulda Björnsdóttir  

Ég vona að guð gefi að FF komist ALDREI í ríkisstjórn

Í fyrra fékk ég 204.996 króna hækkun frá lífeyrissjóði. Eftir skatta og skerðingar á ég 19.672
204.996 skila mér 19.672 krónum!!!

26.ágúst 2022

Varðandi ellilífeyri:

Í gær reif ég mig yfir því að frítekjumark tekna frá lífeyrissjóði er 25 þúsund á sama tíma og frítekjumark venga atvinnutekna er 200 þúsund.

“Guðmundur Ingi hjá FF segir í commenti: það er fáránlegt að hafa frítekjumark á launatekjur því þær eru skattaðar og eiga ekki að skerða aðra tekjur.

Við höfum lagt fram frumvörp um að hætta skerðingum á lífeyrissjóðslaunum og öðrum skerðingum.”

Einmitt það!

ÞESSI MAÐUR ER Í BARÁTTU FYRIR BÆTTUM KJÖRUM ELDRI BORGARA OG ÖRYRKJA Á VEGUM FLOKKS FÓLKSINS.

Ég er eiginlega ekki hissa á þessu commenti hans.

Heldur maðurinn að tekjur frá lífeyrissjóði séu EKKI skattlagðar?

Er þekking hans ekki meiri en það sem commentið ber með sér?

Veit hann ekki að tekjur frá lífeyrissjóði eru atvinnutekjur sem var frestað að taka, lögum samkvæmt, á meðan viðkomandi var á vinnumarkaði?

Líklega veit hann ekki að partur af þeim greiðslum sem elstu borgararnir fá er tvískattaður!

Reynsla mín af þessum ágæta manni er ekki sérlega uppörvandi en þetta comment er svo gjörsamlega út í hött og sýnir hvað hann og hans flokkur stendur fyrir.

AÐ HÆTTA ÖLLUM SKERÐINGUM þýðir að flokkurinn FF vill að faðir BB og aðrir ríkustu menn landsins fá óskertar bætur frá TR!

AÐ HAFA EKKI ÞAK Á SKERÐINGUM ER ÚT Í HRÓA HÖTT OG GERT EINGÖNGU FYRIR HINA RÍKUSTU.

Er það málið?

Það er ekki nóg að tala fjálglega úr ræðustóli eða skrifa stórkallaleg comment á Facebook, ef þekkingin er ekki meiri en svo að halda að tekjur frá lífeyrissjóði séu skattfrjálsar en atvinnutekjur skattskyldar!!

Þetta er eiginlega hlægilegt. ef það væri ekki svona graf alvarlegt.

Guð hjálpi Íslandi ef svona flokkur kemst í ríkisstjórn.

Það er sem betur fer þingmaður sem hefur skilning á málinu og skilur að það er lögbrot hvernig farið er með tekjur frá lífeyrissjóðum og hann hefur gert eitthvað í málinu, en sá þingmaður er ekki frá FF.

Hulda Bjornsdottir

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It is a sad day so far, but there are shining clouds also!

26th of August 2022

It is a new day and soon there will be a new month.

I woke up in the morning sad and almost crying.

Yesterday was not a good day but it was not a bad day. It was just a day that I don’t want to remember.

Today is the first day in a very long time that there is no fire in my little land. That is good.

Today is the day I got the letter from my pension fund, the public one, and was told that I should pay back more than half of my pension next month because they had let me have too much last year.

I knew this was coming but it felt real when I saw the letter and I cryed.

Now I have had breakfast and the day is already beginning to pass.

The sun is shining and new flowers are not suffering too much in the heat but the afternoon will be very hot. I truly hope the fires wont start again in my little land.

68 people have already been caught for lighting the fires. There are more out there and the problem is that those who are caught are released within days if they ever have to spend one day in prison.

My life is a mess this morning and I am trying to hold my head high but it is difficult, I admit that.

Yesterday I wrote a letter to all the persons in the Icelandic parliament about the unjust how they treat my pension from my private fund. I did not expect any one of the 63 to reply but I have got two replies already. One that does not come as a surprise and he has already done something to try to solve the case. The other was from someone who was going to look into the matter if he had time! Seriously!

Anyway, I have decided to write about the poor situation those who are the middle class or lover in the Icelandic system and how they are treated by the government which is for the rich and only for the rich.

I feel it is my duty to take up the thread again and perhaps it will take my mind from my messy situation which I can not do anything about.

I am supposed to be grateful for every day. I am trying but today is a dark day.

This month is almost over, thank god for that.

A new month is arriving and how it will turn out I have no idea.

Being in a situation that seems to be hopeless is not good but behind every cloud there is always a shining star. I know that.

I will survive.

Hulda Bjornsdottir

Munu þingmenn lesa þetta? Nei!

25. ágúst 2022

Skerðingar og skattar!

Hvernig er þetta allt saman á mannamáli?

Hver hirðir mismuninn?

Ég spyr alþingismenn:

Er þetta jafnræði og er þetta sanngjarnt?

Hvers vegna sitja ekki allir eldri borgarar við sama borð þegar komið er að skerðingum?

Mun einhver alþingismaður svara þessari spurningu? Ég efast um það.

Vita þingmenn að skerðingar renna í vasa ríkisins?

Það vita allir, og líklega líka þingmenn, að skattar renna í ríkissjóð en vita þeir hvert skerðingarnar renna?

Hér eru dæmi um misréttið og skýring á því hve mikið ríkið hirðir af ellilaunum þeirra sem eru með 199 þúsund krónu mánaðartekjur ef þeir á annað borð hafa einhverjar tekjur utan þess lífeyris sem ríkið skammtar:

Dæmi 1.

Einungis tekjur frá TR: Heildartekjur fyrir skatt krónur 286.619, heildartekjur eftir skatt krónur 250.393

Dæmi 2.

199 þúsund krónur frá Lífeyrissjóði. Heildartekjur á mánuði fyrir skatt krónur 407.319 (frá líf krónur 199.000 + frá TR krónur 208.319), heildartekjur á mánuði eftir skatt: krónur 330.738

Dæmi 3.

199.þúsund krónur í atvinnutekjur.

 Heildartekjur á mánuði fyrir skatt krónur 485.619 (frá atvinnu krónur 199.000 + frá TR krónur 286.619), heildartekjur á mánuði eftir skatt: krónur 379.323

Dæmi 4.

199 þúsund krónur í fjármagnstekjur.

Heildartekjur fyrir skatt krónur 407.319 (frá fjármagnstekjum krónur 199.000 + frá TR krónur 208.319) , heildartekjur á mánuði eftir skatt: krónur 351.939

Það er ekki sama hvaðan tekjur koma.

Hver hirðir mismuninn?  Jú, það er ríkið.

Ríkið hirðir með skerðingum og sköttum en það er ekki sama við hvaða borð þú situr.

Það er ekki sama hvort 199.000 krónurnar þínar koma frá Lífeyrissjóði, atvinnurekenda eða fjármagnstekjum.

Er þetta sanngjarnt og er þetta að gera öllum jafn hátt undir höfði?

Ég spyr stjórnmálamenn!!

Hulda Björnsdóttir

Hvítflibba greyin

24. ágúst 2022

Heil vika er eftir af þessum mánuði og margir eldri borgarar og líklega enn fleiri öryrkjar vita ekki hvað þeir eiga að hafa í matinn þessa 7 daga sem eftir eru.  Þetta er velferðin sem Kata talar um og BB glennir sig yfir í tíma og ótíma.  Kata líklega frekar í erlendum blöðum og á erlendum ráðstefnum en mér sýnist BB glenna sig alls staðar.

Í gær sagðist ég ekki vera par ánægð með hvað verður um tekjurnar mínar frá lífeyrissjóðinum mínum og hið opinbera, TR, stelur af mér í hverjum mánuði.

Fólki finnst ég vanþakklát og ekki skilja að þeir sem eru til dæmist að vinna á leikskólum hafi varla 200 þúsund eftir skatta.

Það sem ég var að tala um í gær eru þessar ágætu 199 þúsund krónur sem ég fæ áður en teknir eru skattar og ellilífeyrir minn frá TR skertur! Ég er ekki að tala um að ég hafi þessar 199 þúsund til ráðstöfunar, síður en svo.

Ég settist niður í morgun og reiknaði, með reiknivél TR hvernig tekjur upp á 199 þúsund geta haft mismunandi áhrif í endanlega útkomu hjá ellilífeyris manneskju.

Svona lítur þetta út.

Fullur ellilífeyrir fyrir skatt og skerðingar er krónur 286.619

Dæmi 1.  Ef ég fæ 199 þúsund krónur á mánuði í greiðslur frá Lífeyrissjóði er útkoman eftir skatt og skerðingar krónur 330.738,   frá TR krónur 208.319 og frá lífeyrissjóði 199.000 mínus skattar 76.581 og útkoman er 330.738

Ég lagði í lífeyrissjóð 4% af tekjum mínum alla mína starfsæfi frá því að skylt var að greiða í þessa sjóði

Dæmi 2. Ef ég hins vegar fæ 199 þúsund í atvinnutekjur eftir að ég er farin að fá ellilaun frá TR þá er útkoman svona fyrir skatt:  286.619 frá TR (fullur óskertur ellilífeyrir) plús 199.000 frá lífeyrissjóði . 

Í skatt borga ég 53.916 vegna TR og 97.626 vegna tekna frá lífeyrissjóði og endanleg útkoma er 351.939 krónur á mánuði í stað 330.738 ef ég fæ þessar 199 þúsund frá lífeyrissjóði.

Dæmi 3. Ef þessar 199 þúsund krónur eru fjármagnstekjur er dæmið svona: frá TR fæ ég 208.319 krónur, sömu upphæð og ef tekjurnar eru frá lífeyrissjóði.  Svo fæ ég 199.000 í fjármagnstekjur.  Síðan reiknast skattar og eftir það eru eftir krónur 351.939 í tekjur á mánuði

Dæmi 4 er svo ef ég fengi ekkert annað en bætur frá TR og þá lítur þetta svona út:  286.619 krónur (fullur ellilífeyrir) og frádregin staðgreiðsla 36.226 krónur, svo niðurstaðan er 250.393 krónur í tekjur á mánuði.

Hver er svo niðurstaðan?

Jú,

Dæmi 4: Engar tekjur aðrar en frá TR:  tekjur eftir skatta krónur 250.393

Dæmi 1: 199.000 krónu tekjur frá Lífeyrissjóði plús skerðing frá TR og heildar útkoman er krónur 330.738 eftir skatt.

Dæmi 2: 199.000 krónur sem eru atvinnutekjur og engar skerðingar frá TR sem þýðir fullur ellilífeyrir frá TR krónur 286,619. Samtals tekjur eftir skatt krónur 379.323

Dæmi 3: 199.000 krónur sem eru fjármagnstekjur: þá er dæmið svona: krónur 208.319 ellilífeyrir frá TR og eftir skatt er útkoman 351.939 á mánuði.

Mér finnst ósanngjarnt að sparnaður minn alla mína starfsævi, samkvæmt lögum, í lífeyrissjóð skuli skerða það sem ég fæ frá TR, en ég hef borgað skatta og skyldur til þjóðfélagsins alla mína starfsævi og inni í þeim sköttum eru greiðslur til velferðarkerfis, þar sem hluti þess er jú greiðslur frá TR.

Ég er ekki stóreigna manneskja eða kona sem hef haft milljónir í mánaðalaun á starfsferlinum.

Ég er bara venjuleg manneskja með frekar lág laun miðað við marga á minni starfsæfi sem borgaði allt sem mér var gert að borga og draga frá launum mínum.

Ég er hreint ekki að reka áróður fyrir því að allir fá óskert allt frá TR! Hreint ekki. Þeir ríku geta séð um sig.

Hver er að berjast af alvöru fyrir breytingum á þessu kerfi?

Stjórnmála menn eru með lokuð augun.

Þeir eru sælir með sitt og gamlingjarnir sem sofa og vilja stærri klukku hafa ekki sýnt mér að þeir séu að berjast fyrir venjulega eldri borgara og öryrkja. Hvað eru þessir kallar með margföld laun eldri borgara eða öryrkja? Spyrja þeir sjálfa sig einhvern tímann að því?

Þeir sem ég hef séð tala um að bæta þurfi kjörin hjá þessum tveimur hópum eru ungt fólk í stjórnarandstöðu og hafa þar af leiðandi engin tök á að gera neitt í málinu.

Blákaldur raunveruleikinn er sá að þingheimi er ríkisbubbum er nákvæmlega sama um fátæka fólkið og ég er reið.

Ég skrifaði þingmönnum og ráðherrum og fleiri sem gátu haft einhver áhrif.  Ég gafst upp á þessu öllu fyrir 2 árum. Engin svör komu frá þeim sem voru við völd og gátu gert eitthvað. 4 eða fimm venjulegir þingmenn í stjórnarandstöðu svöruðu einu sinni og svo ekki söguna meir.

Kerfið er svo flókið að þessir stuttbuxna sjallar eða hvítflibba grey geta ekki eytt dýrmætum tíma sínum í að velta fyrir hvað sé hægt að gera fyrir hina sem eru verr staddir. Nei, nei, nei, þeir senda seðlabanka stjóra til þess að segja okkur hvað allt sé okkur að kenna og hvernig við verðum að herða sultarólina svo hægt sé að halda áfram sukkinu.

Hvað hefur BB og fleiri flokksformenn fengið marga milljarða afskrifaða?

Hver borgar þessar afskriftir?

Hafa þeir og þær þurft að taka afleiðingum gerða sinna og borga fyrir illa rekin fyrirtæki í eigu þeirra og ættingja?  Nei, þetta fólki heldur áfram að sitja í þægilegu stólunum einhvers staðar, ef ekki á alþingi og halda áfram að ausa úr nægtar skálum almanna fés.

Kata setur á fót nefnd eftir nefnd eða starfshópa til þess að skoða og rýna og skoða meira og skrifa skýrslu svo hægt sé að fóðra skrifborðsskúffur með ályktunum og rýningum.

Mér finnst þessi samkoma hreinlega hlægileg og ekki batnar hún.

Ég gæti haldið áfram í allan dag að ausa úr skálum vonbrigða minna en það skiptir engu máli. Það er ekkert hlustað, á þeim stöðum þar sem hægt væri að breyta, á það sem ég hef að segja.

Ísland alltaf best í öllu!

Húsbænda og hjúa menningin blómstrar sem aldrei fyrr á þessu guðs volaða landi.

Hulda Björnsdóttir

My happiness is coming!

3rd of August 2022

I’m thinking about gratitude and happiness.

Where does the happiness come from?

Does it come from another person or does it belong to your responsibility to be happy?

My life has been messy for months now and have been running from happiness to despair like a mad one.

I have fallen and I have risen up again and the hope has entered again when I have lost hope.

Yesterday something important happened to me.

I cried and was desperate to hold onto something I have not felt was real for a long time.

Today is another day and I am not crying. I can not say that I am truly happy or completely at piece but I am getting there.

I have made a decision about my future concerning the rest of this year. The decision is to be calm, to accept what I can not change and pray for the wisdom to know the difference.

This can be complicated and it takes courage and trust.

Trust in myself and courage to accept whatever the future months bring.

It is a relief, but it is also sadness that I feel.

It feels like I have lost something important but it also feels like a burden has been lifted from my heart.

The last 2 years have ben an important lesson. I believe that everything happens for a reason. Today I don´t know why the years have been like they have but I know that one day in the future I will see why and what the lesson was.

One thing I have already learned is that I can not save everyone. I can not be saviour and I don´t have to be ashamed of that. Every person has a limit and mine has arrived.

I deserve only the best.

I am a wonderful person who wants to help where help is needed.

I am human and I make mistakes.

I wonder if I made a mistake during those 2 last years or if I just went on learning the lesson and soon, I will graduate. I don´t know but before the end of the year I will know.

I have learned that I can say what I feel and how I feel without being ashamed.

I have learned that patience is something that does not come to me easily but I have also learned that I can be very patient. This does not quite add up, but that is how it is.

I know I can plan and I can see end result or the steps that need to be taken to get a certain solution but I am not always right. My planning does not always work in the direction I want to.

I have also learned that I can not be responsible for everything and I need to allow other people I care about to make their mistakes and learn from them and I need to step back and just watch.

The most challenge for me during this period has been not to solve everything and to let go and perhaps trust in the universe to take care of everything and then all will be as it is supposed to be.

I do worry about my future. I have to stop it and just step back and take one day at a time and make the most of it for me.

I need to take care of myself first and then I will be able to be there if needed.

I have many things to be grateful for.

Yesterday I was truly grateful for a very special and good friend of mine. She sent me a picture that I needed. With the picture she told me that she somehow felt my pain. This is a true friendship which I treasure every day.

This day is almost over.

Today I have said what is in my heart.

Today I have taken the first step to an emotional freedom from my guilt and imperfection.

The track is in front of me.

The journey is ahead

Into the unknown I head this evening and I am both happy and sad, frustrated and disappointed but above all grateful for the lesson and I know the future will be bright.

My happiness is inside my heart and no one can change that. I just have to understand what it means to be truly happy and wake up every morning with joy and looking forward to the day.

I have to understand that today is almost gone and what happened today is not happening tomorrow.

Every day is a new day with new adventures and new lessons.

I let go of my planning and solving, today was my day of respect for my self and honesty to my self.

I don´t know what tomorrow will bring me.

Tomorrow at this time of the day I will know but now I am going to lay this day to rest.

Hulda Björnsdóttir

August is coming!

31.07.2022

It’s the last day of the month.

It’s a day when you reflect and think about what could have gone better and how you can change the coming days into your happiness.

It is good to set goals and it is wonderful when they appear like you wanted them to but sometimes your goals don´t appear like you thought they would.

Tomorrow is the first day of August and it is also a day when one year ago a plan was set into motion and everything would be different.

What happened is that not everything went as planned. There were hurdles on the road, huge ones sometimes but here we are again one year later and everything seems to be moving into the direction we wanted to.

During this year I have learned a lot.

I have been happy and I have been sad. I have been joyful and I have been angry. I have been desperate and lost hope but found the hope again with the help of a loved one.

Life can be a challenge and I am lucky to have some people around me who never stop supporting when I need support.

There have been mean people during this year who have tried to destroy my happiness and I have fallen into their traps and believer their lies.

Luckily, I have listened to my heart and my gut feeling. Today I am grateful for all that this year has brought me, both good and bad.

Its, just life. Life is complicated.

I read something today that made me pissed off and I thought about how mean people can be.

Some people are simply bad people and the worst of them make themselves like the saints and the others the devils.

Those idiots don´t understand that the truth always comes out and it always has 2 sides just like the coin has 2 sides.

Do people really believe that their side is the truth and nothing but the truth? Don´t they really not understand that every person lives their lives and the experience in the memory is never the same when 2 persons reflect on the same time?

No, they probably don’t because they only see their side and they make that one as beautiful as possible by painting the other like the devil.

This is life and this is what I have to live with but I am strong and I have strong people beside me and I don´t have to belittle the others to make me look good.

I am not perfect, but I have always tried to do my best and sometimes I have succeeded.

The control freaks are the devils. They are the ones who destroy by their lies and madness.

Mean people tried to destroy my happiness by telling me lies that I was stupid enough to believer.

I was lucky. I had strong loving person who never gave up on me and eventually made me look into my heart and figure out what was the truth.

I found the truth and I found the happiness.

Soon my life will change permanently and I am looking forward to it.

I will adjust to my new life with smile on my face and happy light in my eyes.

Someone said: “Remember those who live while they live and don´t just use the nice words when they have passed away”

Talk to your friends and the people you love.  Don´t take them for granted. Remember that you never know how much time you have left on this earth.

My little land is burning and the roads are full of travellers. 6 people have died today in road accidents here in my little land. The fires are roaring around the country. The firefighters and the habitants are doing what they can to safe as much as possible.

The bombeiros are the heroes. They are young people who dedicate their summers to fight the fires. Most of them survive but there are some already who have lost their lives and families grieving.

The next 7 days will be extreme in my little land. There may be more of those days, we are just in August tomorrow. I hope for the best but I am not too optimistic. August is always difficult. The traffic is mad and the heat often roaring its ugly face. We have not had rain for along time and the draught is a problem.

Today I saw on the news that the electricity could go up 40 percent next month! That is not good news for the families here in my little land.

Price of gasoline and diesel have gone a little down, but not much, although everything helps.

The terrorists are attacking my little land every day. They go to the woods and light the fires. The government gives them a slap of the hand if they are caught and they are free to continue until the cold arrives.

There is something very wrong about this.

In the country where I was born and where I get my pension from the richer get richer and the poor get poorer. The just is for the rich. The normal people are simply in the way. This is a country of 350 thousand people where everyone could have decent life if the corruption was not sucking everything like a vacuum cleaner.

They say that in my little land there is a corruption and the land where I was born is beautiful and everything wonderful.

Yes, there is a corruption in my little land but it is nothing compared to the one in the birth land of mine.

Greed, lies, corruption, self-rightness is strong but the loving caring true people will eventually survive.

Happiness is not for free. It takes work and it takes time to keep it in my life.

I am willing to work every day, every minute, every second of the rest of my life to keep the happiness I have in my life.

I may be sad and may be disappointed and confused sometimes but I know where to go and where my happiness stays.

Life is just to be grateful for and I am truly grateful for my life. It has been a learning process and it will continue to be that.

I came to this world to be happy.

It took me a long time to realize that I deserve the happiness I am offered.

Gratitude is a good feeling.

No one can take that away from me, even the ugly mean hateful that want to destroy me will never succeed. They will destroy themselves.

Tomorrow is the first day of august and the first day of a new beginning for me.

Hulda Björnsdóttir