It’s the last day of the month.
It’s a day when you reflect and think about what could have gone better and how you can change the coming days into your happiness.
It is good to set goals and it is wonderful when they appear like you wanted them to but sometimes your goals don´t appear like you thought they would.
Tomorrow is the first day of August and it is also a day when one year ago a plan was set into motion and everything would be different.
What happened is that not everything went as planned. There were hurdles on the road, huge ones sometimes but here we are again one year later and everything seems to be moving into the direction we wanted to.
During this year I have learned a lot.
I have been happy and I have been sad. I have been joyful and I have been angry. I have been desperate and lost hope but found the hope again with the help of a loved one.
Life can be a challenge and I am lucky to have some people around me who never stop supporting when I need support.
There have been mean people during this year who have tried to destroy my happiness and I have fallen into their traps and believer their lies.
Luckily, I have listened to my heart and my gut feeling. Today I am grateful for all that this year has brought me, both good and bad.
Its, just life. Life is complicated.
I read something today that made me pissed off and I thought about how mean people can be.
Some people are simply bad people and the worst of them make themselves like the saints and the others the devils.
Those idiots don´t understand that the truth always comes out and it always has 2 sides just like the coin has 2 sides.
Do people really believe that their side is the truth and nothing but the truth? Don´t they really not understand that every person lives their lives and the experience in the memory is never the same when 2 persons reflect on the same time?
No, they probably don’t because they only see their side and they make that one as beautiful as possible by painting the other like the devil.
This is life and this is what I have to live with but I am strong and I have strong people beside me and I don´t have to belittle the others to make me look good.
I am not perfect, but I have always tried to do my best and sometimes I have succeeded.
The control freaks are the devils. They are the ones who destroy by their lies and madness.
Mean people tried to destroy my happiness by telling me lies that I was stupid enough to believer.
I was lucky. I had strong loving person who never gave up on me and eventually made me look into my heart and figure out what was the truth.
I found the truth and I found the happiness.
Soon my life will change permanently and I am looking forward to it.
I will adjust to my new life with smile on my face and happy light in my eyes.
Someone said: “Remember those who live while they live and don´t just use the nice words when they have passed away”
Talk to your friends and the people you love. Don´t take them for granted. Remember that you never know how much time you have left on this earth.
My little land is burning and the roads are full of travellers. 6 people have died today in road accidents here in my little land. The fires are roaring around the country. The firefighters and the habitants are doing what they can to safe as much as possible.
The bombeiros are the heroes. They are young people who dedicate their summers to fight the fires. Most of them survive but there are some already who have lost their lives and families grieving.
The next 7 days will be extreme in my little land. There may be more of those days, we are just in August tomorrow. I hope for the best but I am not too optimistic. August is always difficult. The traffic is mad and the heat often roaring its ugly face. We have not had rain for along time and the draught is a problem.
Today I saw on the news that the electricity could go up 40 percent next month! That is not good news for the families here in my little land.
Price of gasoline and diesel have gone a little down, but not much, although everything helps.
The terrorists are attacking my little land every day. They go to the woods and light the fires. The government gives them a slap of the hand if they are caught and they are free to continue until the cold arrives.
There is something very wrong about this.
In the country where I was born and where I get my pension from the richer get richer and the poor get poorer. The just is for the rich. The normal people are simply in the way. This is a country of 350 thousand people where everyone could have decent life if the corruption was not sucking everything like a vacuum cleaner.
They say that in my little land there is a corruption and the land where I was born is beautiful and everything wonderful.
Yes, there is a corruption in my little land but it is nothing compared to the one in the birth land of mine.
Greed, lies, corruption, self-rightness is strong but the loving caring true people will eventually survive.
Happiness is not for free. It takes work and it takes time to keep it in my life.
I am willing to work every day, every minute, every second of the rest of my life to keep the happiness I have in my life.
I may be sad and may be disappointed and confused sometimes but I know where to go and where my happiness stays.
Life is just to be grateful for and I am truly grateful for my life. It has been a learning process and it will continue to be that.
I came to this world to be happy.
It took me a long time to realize that I deserve the happiness I am offered.
Gratitude is a good feeling.
No one can take that away from me, even the ugly mean hateful that want to destroy me will never succeed. They will destroy themselves.
Tomorrow is the first day of august and the first day of a new beginning for me.