I stood up for myself and it felt good

24. 08 2024

Just a thought about my self-esteem!

My whole life I have not had a problem standing up for those I think are some kinds of underdogs or if people need help.

This is in my nature and some have a name over it: Having a good heart!

I don´t know what it is.

But I have a problem to stand up for myself, sometimes, quite often in fact!

I tolerate being mistreated in some ways for a very long time, until I suddenly have had it, and I erupt like a volcano!

I am trying to change this and tell people when I feel I am being used.

This is difficult for me, so far, but I am getting better day by day.

I am going to a gym and there I have a PT who helps me to gain my strength back.

My PT is a very nice person and I have know him for many years and can trust him with my life if I need to.

I have been looking at the other PTs when they are working and I notice that their customer has their full attention and no one dares to keep them up on talk while they are attending to their customer.

Having a PT costs a lot of money.

Yesterday I lost it!

2 women came into the gym and walked straight to where I was with my PT and they began a conversation with my PT, lauging and having a good time.

I was doing something on a machine and my PT standing next to me.

The ladies took over; they stood there and had a lively conversation for I don´t know how many minutes but i got pissed off, stopped what I was doing and asked the PT if he wanted me to leave?

I was prepared to leave, and that would not have been good for me.

He said no.

I told the ladies ,in an angry voice, that this was my time, that I paid a lot of money for this time with the PT and I wanted them to leave.

They looked at me like I had suddenly got 3 heads!

Leave! I said in a harsh angry voice.

They stood there and just looked at me!

They left eventually and I explained to my PT that I was standing up for myself and this was my right.

I explained to him that it was difficult for me to take my side and now I was trying to change it.

He agreed and we are good. We had a good training and part of it was outside in the good weather.

My PT is a very nice man and wants to be helping everyone and I am sure that he didn’t realise how these conversations with other people in my paid time are not what they should be.

One of the ladies has done this before and I hope she got the message.

I don´t care what those 2 think of me. I stood up for myself and that was enough for me and it felt really good.

What other people think is not my problem, my problem is to make sure I am not being used and stepped over.

On Monday I will go again to my gym, that is my training day. I have been thinking what will I do if the ladies try to have a conversation about the incidence.

I don´t know how I will react but at least I know that they are not going to affect me in any way.

I’m not saying it will be easy. This is new for me i.e. to stand up for myself but it felt good.

Why am a talking about this?

You see, I know there are many people like me who don´t quite understand they do have right and sometimes they have to fight for it but it is ok and will not kill them.

I hope my experience might open at least one person’s eyes!

Have a great weekend and satay strong.

Hulda Bjornsdottir